Being pregnant isn't all that bad...

I have started to realize that being pregnant isn't all that bad. Yes, it took me about 6 of the 9/10 months to realize that, but at least I finally did.  I am blessed by God to have this tiny present that He has given me inside me. I should not complain about it.  I have a quote on my desk at work that I try to read every day "God has blessed me with something so amazing...I may not be comfortable every second of the day, but that is just a small price to pay to have such a gift from God". It is so true too!  The last couple of months have actually been wonderful. 

I finally have started to embrace the bump. I still have those people that can say rude things like "wow you look like you are going to pop", but I just sweetly smile and ignore it.  I had an incident happen in my 8th month where someone asked how much longer I had. When I replied "a month", their response was "you are going to be huge".  It hurt my feelings a whole lot.  I went vocal about it.  The person who said it gave a very heartfelt apology that really was sweet.  I knew at that point that I needed just to take it with a grain of salt.  Just let it flow off of me. I am comfortable in my own skin. I need not let others get me down or judge me.  So, I have done that and led a happier end to my pregnancy.  Most people now tell me that I am the cutest pregnant person they have ever seen.  They say I am all belly (which I think is the truth seriously).  I know I have you growing inside me. It also helped going to the doctor and seeing how much you weighed.  I know that sounds strange.  When they told me that you were already 7 lbs estimated, I automatically thought of other Mom's I know that have delivered 7 lb babies.  I feel like I am the same size, if not smaller, so that made me more confident.  Plus I am not sure what else I could do. I work out every single day for an hour at least..most days an hour and a half.  I have really tried to keep my weight down, so that helps with my confidence as well.

Speaking of the doctor, Mom and I went to the doctor on Sept 13th when I was 36 weeks and 4 days to have an ultrasound. Dr Gilliam wanted to see what you were measuring because of the gestational diabetes.  I loved having Mom there because she had never seen you in real life (well you know what I mean).  The girl who did the ultrasound was so enamored by you.  She measured your head first. She said you are measuring about a week ahead of schedule. Looks like you might have a big head :)  She said you are measuring estimated 7lbs, which means you will be high 8's, low 9's if you come on your delivery date, Oct 7th.  She showed us a lot of your body parts like your male parts, bones, stomach, and heart.  She was really captivated by your face.  She ended up doing a 4D on you so we could actually see your squishy little face. You were such a ham!  You looked perfect.  Your lips are so full. At a point, you opened up your mouth. You were just adorable and sweet.  My heart just burst with affection seeing your sweet face again.  I get all emotional thinking about it now.  Your head is down, so you are ready to come. I had another appointment last Friday on the 20th. I am 0 cm dilated and 75% effaced.  I am hoping you will wait it out the whole time. I just have a couple of things left to do and I know once you come, I will be so wrapped up in you that I am not sure if those things will be finished.

I still LOVEEEE feeling you move.  It is the BEST part of pregnancy. I know that I will really miss it when you are gone. You now are sticking out body parts.  It is funny because you will do it and I will just push you back inside. It is almost like you are going to kick that certain body part, like your heel or fist, outside my belly.  It is so cute!!!  You have started getting the hiccups. It is another thing I love. You have them pretty much daily.  Sometimes even twice or three times a day.  It is adorable. I can't wait to see you actually have them outside the body.

I love how Weston acts towards you. He is super protective.  Examples: he has not let me travel since I was about 24 weeks. I went to Montgomery. The whole time he made sure I kept in contact with him too.  Yesterday (I am 38 weeks now), he wouldn't let me leave the neighborhood when I walked.  It is cute.  I have never had him be overprotective.  Now as an independent person, it can be a little annoying at time, but at the same time I adore him for wanting to protect his child and wife.  Also, yesterday we installed the car seat bases. We initially installed his behind the drivers seat because the other two seats in his truck lift up for more room. Well, after he found out that the middle was the safest, he changed it to the middle. He doesn't have the latches, so he looked to see how to install it using the seat belt. He was determined to have the car seat base in the safest place possible.  I catch him a lot in his sleep putting his hand on you to see if you are moving or just to give you a rub.  It is like he is dreaming about you (or at least that is what I tell myself).  At night when we come home from work, I will work out. Afterwards, you will move around like crazy. We just sit and stare at you moving inside my belly. I have made a lot of recordings on my phone so that you will be able to see it one day.  It is amazing how it never gets old.  I could just look at you all day long if you moved all day long.  Weston sometimes will talk to you. He will get right on my belly and make these strange noises. I tell him that he can talk to you in a normal voice and you can hear him. He always responds that he is playing a game with his son. It is super cute!  I am glad that he is bonding with you. He seems really excited.

The only things I have to complain about at this point is that I get nauseated every night now.  I asked the nurse about it and she said it was because my hormones are preparing for birth. She said that is a good sign.  Also she said that was perfectly normal.  You feel like you did at the end of pregnancy like the beginning of the pregnancy, which is interesting.  I have medication, but I am really trying not to take it. It just stinks to feel like that. I am not a huge fan of nausea...not sure if anyone is really. Haha.  The other complaint is that you are really low.  Seriously your head is really super low. Your head is right on my bladder. When you move your head, you hit my bladder. Also, you are bouncing around on my sciatic nerve.  It causes a sharp pain in my bottom running all the way down my leg.  Some days you will do this all day.  Other days, not at all.  It is something I can deal with though.

Not much longer until you get here. I am fine with you staying as long as you want though.  I mean I am ready for you to be here, don't get me wrong. I just want you to come at your own time.  I am not miserable.  I just want a healthy, safe, and fast pregnancy. I hope that if we let you come at your own time, you will be ready to come.  You will not want to stay inside.  Who knows?  I am starting to get nervous about the whole delivery part.  I just hope and pray all goes well.

Where have I been??

Here I sit at 36 weeks pregnant and my last post was at 28.  I know I need to get better about posting. I am probably going to now have to break up all updates into several different posts.  I do have good excuses though!!  Since the last post, we have moved into the new house.  YAY!!!!  It has been pretty much constant going since then.  We moved into the house on August 10th.  It was about two weeks after our expected move in date. Not too bad.  We had several people help us move, which made things a lot easier.  Weston and I closed on the new house on August 8th, a Thursday.  It was great to make this official.  Friday, we decided to take off work and start moving ourselves.  He rented a U-Haul trailer.  We actually moved a lot of stuff on Friday..most of the boxes.  Then the heavy stuff was held off until we had the help on Saturday.  I wasn't much help being 32 weeks.  I basically helped packed up things, unpack things, and clean up the old house.  It rained pretty much the whole time we were moving.  Pretty miserable.  We finally finished about 7 that night.  My feet were like pancakes. It was the first time I had any swelling.  They were throbbing. I stayed in slippers because they had all that padding that helped.

Saying goodbye to the old house was bittersweet. I will miss that first house, but I think we moved at a perfect time. We have had time to settle into the new house and get ready for your arrival.  It will be wonderful to start at the very beginning with you in the new house creating new memories.  Plus this is our dream home. I love every aspect of this house. It was built for us. The only complaint I have has nothing to do even with the house.  It is the roads around our house are two lane. I am used to a four lane road going to work.  I always get stuck behind slow people now going places.  So really, that is not a huge complaint.  I love our neighborhood too. We do not have many neighbors, but the ones we have seen so far have been really nice.  Our next door neighbor is cool.  They are from Cali. His wife has been in Cali since we moved helping her daughter with her wedding at the beg of Oct.  We haven't seen him since we moved in either, but I am sure once they are settled after the wedding that we will see them more often.  There are only 10 houses in the neighborhood, so plenty of room for us.  The back of our house faces a wide open field. I LOVEEE that!! I feel like I am in the country, but still in the city. We have horses that roam the fields.  In the morning, the sunrise is gorgeous. We often have fog rolling through the fields. The combination of the sunrise with the fog is breathtaking.  I feel like I am in the country with really being in the city.  I am hoping that it takes them lots of years before developing that land.  You will be able to enjoy the peacefulness that comes with not having neighbors behind us.  Also, with the neighborhood not being all the way developed, it will be safe for you to play.  A catch and release pond is in the subdivision. I am sure your Daddy will be taking you fishing.  Also, the subdivision next to us has a playground.  It is within walking distance. I know we will be spending a lot of time there.  My good friend Emily Corzine lives in that neighborhood, so I am sure we will have play dates with her kids at the playground.  It seems like the dogs have adjusted to it now.  We had some problems with Nakita behaving badly at first. I think she was rebelling.  She has been acting better recently though. We have been walking them more often, which I think helps.  Maximus does not like how he doesn't have much activity as the other house, but he is able to sit and look at the whole neighborhood from a certain spot in the yard. I think he enjoys it mostly. He will really enjoy it when I am on maternity leave and he gets to stay inside with us all day.  He just love being around people. I hope they both love you.

I thought driving by the old house would be hard, but it really is not that hard. I guess because I love our new house so much.  I have to say that living far from my parents is hard on me, but maybe one of these days we can move Gigi and Pop out our way :)  I have been nesting a whole lot recently.  I thought that I wasn't going to go into that nesting phase.  I think I am in full blown nesting. All I do is pick up. I have become an OCD person when it comes to making sure the house is all organized.  Your nursery is pretty much done. We still have a couple of items to hang, but that will probably come after your arrival. I still haven't figured out what I am going to do in the nursery. I am having a mental block on where I should put all the items to hang. I know eventually I will figure it out.  I am looking forward to introducing you to your room and your crib.