Life always seems to fly by...until you become pregnant. It seems like I have been pregnant forever, but here I am at 28 weeks thinking that I still have 12 weeks to go. We still have so much to do. We have to move into a house and get that all settled. Plus we have to get everything ready for little baby Tanner to make his appearance. I am sure it will start to fly by soon enough especially when I start going to the doctor every two weeks. I have always heard that is when it gets REAL. :)
I wanted to make this post about random things I have discovered since being pregnant. So this is going to be all over the place. Plus I am sure it will be one that will have to be added onto later because:
1. When you are pregnant, you can't remember ANYTHING! I mean I didn't have the best of memories before. Now I can't remember things that I could remember 5 minutes ago. I have sticky notes, calendar, and reminders on my phone of the same item so I will not forget it. Like for instance to take out the recycle. I have to put a sticky note, write it on my calendar, and set a reminder on my phone so that at least one of those will make me remember to do it. Telling Weston to remind me does no good. The other day, I was walking into the bank to make a deposit and knew they would need to see my drivers license. So, I start to pull out my license from my holder attached to my keys. I realized I didn't have my keys. Then I walk back to my car only to realize that my keys are still in the car, which is still running. I don't know if it is even worse because I have work, baby, house, and junior league all going on at once so my mind is all over the place or if all pregnant people are this bad.
2. I now know how woman feel who are blessed in the top region. I have never had that experience that friends tell me about when they are talking to a male and they can see the man starring at their chest instead of their eyes (p.s. son, please don't ever do this-for you need to respect women). Now I have people that when I am talking to them, their eyes drift to my belly. I think it is a little more obvious when someone is starring at your belly rather than your chest too. I have a girl at work..love her...but for the longest time when she would come to talk to me, she would basically be talking to my belly the whole time. Hello....I'm up here. I guess people are fascinated with growing bellies.
3. I am not very fond of the belly. I know friends that are pregnant now that really embrace it. They wear these super tight clothes that just wrap around that belly of theirs. I think they look super cute too. I just can't do it. I really thought I would embrace it. I thought I would be the type that would wear the tight clothes because I think it is so cute with other pregnant women. I couldn't wait to be pregnant to show off the bump. It really has been a struggle with me. It has brought back some dark memories from my childhood that I apparently had suppressed. I was not the skinniest girl growing up. I actually was pretty pudgy until 9th grade. I was the first kid in my class to reach 100 pounds (or at least I was told that on the playground when I was at Gordan Bibb during recess). I was told in elementary school once that I should be the dinosaur because I was big. I overheard a friend say that I looked like a whale one day when I wore all blue. Kids can be very cruel. It is amazing how those younger years mold you for the rest of your life. You really have to watch what you say to others. It could affect them for the rest of their lives. I have had a weight issue ever since childhood. I have watched what I eat and exercised daily to keep at a very small weight. Actually for two years in a row that I saw my gyno before pregnancy, she told me that I was underweight and was worried about my weight. So, when I got pregnant and packed on the pounds, it wasn't easy. People would say "Wow, you are already showing" or "look at that belly" It was really hard at first. Then it kind of stopped for awhile. I think I started to hide it. Now at 28 weeks, I am afraid you are so big inside me, that it is hard not to show. I can't even see my feet anymore. I weighed myself this morning and I had only gained 10.5 pounds, but even today at a baby shower a lady said that I was larger than a girl who is 32 weeks. I just wish people would watch what they say or think. People's bodies are all different. I know that with me, I will look larger because people are so used to me being so small (note to everyone out there...gain a lot of weight before getting pregnant haha). But really, like don't ever come up to me and say "so and so looks like they are about to pop". You don't know what is going on with them on the inside. You don't know how much weight they have gained or not gained. People are so judgemental and quick to judge. Most of the people who say those kinds of things are not the smallest people in the world. I have done my best to stay in shape. I don't know many girls that at 28 weeks are still running 3.5 miles. Ok that is my soapbox, but that is probably my "biggest" issue with pregnancy.
4. No touching policy. When I was first pregnant, people would always want to touch my belly. I always thought it was strange because there was really not much there. Plus you were not even moving. I had no connection with you whatsoever just because you were not moving and most days I didn't even feel pregnant. I can remember one day during tax season a girl came to see me and she started rubbing my belly. Angeleck was up front with me and she said it took everything in her being to not bust out laughing. She knew how uncomfortable I was. With that being said, now it is not too bad. I mean I don't say "hey come rub my belly", but I am not as weirded out by it like before. I really don't mind if it is someone I am close to unless I just want to be left alone. I am sure I would have a problem with someone that I am not as close to doing it, but luckily not many people do it.
5. Most pregnant women complain about being sick and tired during the first trimester or how they have to pee all the time. I didn't have really either. I mean I was nauseated during the first trimester most of the time unless I ate, so I ate a LOT :) I was tired, I will say that. Of course it was the busiest time at work. I was working insane hours, so I am sure that played a part into it. I do not have to pee any more than I used to before pregnancy. I have always had bladder craziness, so bladder doesn't really phase me.
6. I am really hormonal. It has been off and on throughout the pregnancy. I will go weeks where I am normal. Then one week I will be real to myself. One week I will be super cranky. One week I will cry every day. I cry ALL the time. I can't remember what I was thinking about the other day at work while heating up my food, but I just started crying. When I got diagnosed with gestational diabetes, it was the worst time for crying. I think I cried daily for a week. I was all over the place! I will cry watching TV. I will cry at some random song. I was an emotional person before, but wowzers talk about being emotional now. I can't even control it. Poor Weston. I will just be sitting there in the middle of a conversation with him and I will start crying. For no reason. It is really strange. People make me mad easily. A guy interrupted me on the phone at work the other day and I walked into my office and started going off to my boss about how he needed to teach him lessons. He just laughed and said "pregnancy hormones huh?" Haha. I mean you better watch what you say to me. I don't really hold back as much as I used to before. I will snap at you in a heartbeat.
7. Nesting to me = loner. Some people talk about this nesting word. They want to clean the house. I haven't really done that at all. I will say though that I have turned into a homebody BIG TIME! I do not want to leave the house at all....E-V-E-R. I have no idea why either. I don't really want to socialize. I will get to this later, but I have been super attached to Weston. He is like the only person I want to be around, which is strange for us because we are not a super attached couple. My personality is not really a social personality anyways. I don't really like to be in crowds or be around people, but I can handle it better when I am not pregnant. It has become really bad during the last couple of weeks. I hope this isn't a third trimester thing and just a phase. It is almost like I just don't want to be around people. When I am out socializing, I am anxious about leaving to go home. When I am at work, I am not putting in both earplugs to just ignore my surroundings. It is really stinky. I am not a big fan of it, but I also can't help it. I have no idea what that is all about either!
8. Weston has really impressed me during this whole pregnancy. When I first got pregnant, he was so sweet. We would be watching TV and he would just lay his hand on my belly. He would talk to my belly at night. He would say goodnight to you. It is funny because he would do it in this strange voice like "Luke, I am your father" voice from Star Wars. I would ask him why he is talking funny and he said that was how you could hear him. Not sure what that means. Then sometimes he could make these weird sounds on my belly saying he was playing with you. He has been super helpful picking up things around the house. He will rub my back when I say it hurts. He will help carry heavy things. He has stepped up tremendously. He also has helped a lot in the decisions on the house. I basically have been out of that and he has handled it all. Thank goodness! He also created the nickname little Ray Ray. When we first started talking baby names, he suggested Ray (his middle name). I said no way! Not a fan of Ray...no offense. So, he would do it to irritate me. He would talk to you and call you Ray Ray to the point that I thought you would come out thinking that was your name. He finally has stopped. I guess I just got used to it, so he knew it didn't bother me anymore. It is funny because sometimes he would come to talk to you or rub my belly and I would push him away because I just didn't feel it at the moment, he would always say "he is MY baby too, let me talk to my baby". Haha. He already adores you. He also has been super helpful with this diabetes. Sometimes I feel like he is the only one that really gets it. I want to do what the doctors tell me to do because I feel like that I will help you be the healthiest baby. I do not want you to have health issues, be big, or have diabetes. Weston was on the Atkins diet when I found out to help himself lose weight for a backpacking trip he was taking. He said that after the trip, he would stay on the diet so he would do it with me. He is being so supportive. It is nice to have him eating the same things so I am not tempted. He did all this research on gestational diabetes and what I can/can't eat. My love has really grown for him over these past months. I have become super attached to him. We are a very independent couple. Before pregnancy, we would do our own things a whole lot. He would go out with his friends and I would go out with mine. We didn't really spend too much time together. Now I am stuck on him like glue. We are together all the time. Surprisingly, we don't fight either. I would think with all the quality time, we would be cranky with one another. Now sometimes I will be snappy, but most of the time we have been cuddly and sweet with one another. Yes, so not me! He really is amazing. To put up with my crazy pregnant self, he is a stand up guy. I don't know if you have ever had this feeling where your whole body swells with this overwhelming feeling of love. It is like a shock or shiver goes through your body. The other night Weston was feeling you kick before he left on his trip. We sat in bed before going to sleep with him feeling you for about 5-10 minutes. It was storming outside. Soon enough this black, furry, 55 lb Siberian Husky jumps on the bed and crawls in between us. I sat there and petted him comforting him until I fell asleep. I love snuggling with my puppy dog. It was one of those overwhelming love moments. My two dogs, my sweet husband, and our amazing blessing from God growing in my belly. I couldn't have a better family.
9. Cravings. When I first was pregnant, I craved really strange things. Powered white doughnuts. Lucky Charms. and MEXICAN. I wasn't really into sweets at all during my first and part of second trimester. I would eat them occasionally if they were around, but wouldn't crave them. Another thing that I loved before I was pregnant and not so much while pregnant is fish. When we went to the beach, I wasn't feeling the fish. I don't know if it just wasn't as good as normal or if I just was not turned onto fish like normally. I haven't had any fish that I can think of since the beach trip in May. I still don't like red meat much. I will crave cheeseburgers sometimes. Oh pizza. I didn't like pizza before...now I love it. Yes, now that I have gestational, I crave sweets ALL THE TIME. All I can think about is milkshakes. For instance today..I have thought about bubblegum ice cream, cookie cake, cookie cake with ice cream in the middle, homemade ice cream, peach cobbler, banana pudding, bundt cakes (I cheated and had one earlier), and pecan pie. And those thoughts basically happen daily. Ice cream is what kills me. I am a lover of ice cream. Now that I can't have it, I think about it all the time. I want it all the time. My other obsession is Mexican food. I loved Mexican food before. My love has only grown. I could eat Mexican on a daily basis. Another thing I crave a whole lot is breakfast foods. Weston said the other day that the Tanners are keeping the chicken's in business. We go through 18 eggs in probably a week and a half. I could eat breakfast foods for all three meals. I already have a list of foods that I am eating once I get the all clear on gestational.
10. Pregnancy card. Now the pregnancy card has had its really fun moments. When I don't want to move something even though I know I can-pregnancy card. Once I got to go in a bathroom that was shut down to be cleaned all by myself because of the pregnancy card. People are so attentive and helpful. They are so sweet when you are pregnant. Sometimes it is kind of annoying though. I am a pretty independent person, so I am not a huge fan of people doing things that I am capable of doing. So like if I want to get in a chair to hang something, I am going to get in the chair and hang it. I am cool. You are right there to catch me if I fall. I just don't want to sit around looking like I am lazy. Belly is not going to hold me back. The doc told me to go on with my daily routine like before, so that is exactly what I am trying to do. It is nice though that people care about my well being and want to help. Believe me, I appreciate it and most the time I want the help because I am inherently a lazy person. Plus the pregnancy card has gotten me out of cleaning the bathtub for 7 months!! I HATE cleaning the bathtub. It is the only thing I don't like to clean. I knew how to pull that pregnancy card quickly. ;)
11. I think almost every pregnant person I have talked to complains about the baby moving. I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE when you move. It has been the best part of pregnancy. I really don't think I could ever get tired of it. I already know that I am going to have depression after you are born because I will not have that kicking anymore. It is how I bond with you. I just sit there and let you kick my hand. I love to pull up my shirt and see my tummy rolling around like crazy. I have no idea why people don't enjoy it. A girl I know said she used to spank her stomach and tell her child to stop moving inside her belly! I tell you to keep on moving. You have gotten to where you move pretty much most of the day. Sometimes it is really soft where you can barely feel it and then sometimes it is so big that my whole belly shifts in one direction. I just love it.
12. I am crossing my fingers that I will not have to purchase maternity clothes. So far, I am still fitting in most of my clothes. Luckily it is summer where I can wear a bunch of dresses that are stretchy anyways. I didn't want to waste money on maternity clothes for two months. Seems crazy! The only things I have bought so far are two pairs of jeans, two pairs of shorts, and two bathing suits (that were not maternity).
Ok this is way long and I think I am done with my random facts about pregnancy. I might have a second post thought....since #1 might happen :)
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